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TESTIMONY SECTION

My Story
No Longer Abandoned

(Originally published by Taiwan Chinese Christian Mission in 2007, Issue 46. Permission to re-publish by
the author and TCCM)

Dr. Shuping Nall
Class of 1995
Currently an associate professor at National Quemoy University

How can I use limited human language to describe God’s work of grace?
I tell my story so others will see what our loving God can do for them
because of what He has done for me.

“If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the born and remained there till she passed away. I
old has passed away, the new has come.” (2 Cor.5:17 didn’t believe that I deserved any love though I
ESV) I believe this, because God has made me new! yearned for it.

I grew up bearing a lot of guilt and shame because In fact, I didn’t know love existed until
my mother had a mental disorder. As a little girl, I the first time I stepped into a church and was
always had people calling me “that crazy woman’s touched by the love of God. I didn’t understand
child.” Mother’s illness cost almost everything we it, but since that day, the loving God placed
had. Sometimes, all four of us children got so hungry words in my ears saying, “We love because he
that we would send one representative to the grocery first loved us,” and “For God so loved the world
store to ask for one package of instant noodles to share that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever
between the four of us. As poor as we were, we didn’t believes in him shall not perish but have eternal
get extra academic assistance, and I often received very life.” Gradually I realized that my Heavenly
poor grades. My school teachers, instead of helping Father, for years, had been waiting to welcome
me, often hit and scolded me. They would say, “So! me to His loving home.
Your mom is crazy, and you are stupid too!” Even
my father didn’t love me. Living in a world like this I couldn’t find a job after graduating from
made me hate everyone, especially myself. I could a vocational high school. I prayed that God
not imagine the great “mother’s love” that the world would open a door for me. God allowed me to
praised because my mom was hospitalized when I was be accepted by Christ’s College, giving me an

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